I have recently come to a realization concerning my job.

It has not come easy.

For a while now I have thought of myself as paving the way for those who will come after me and as a voice for those of us currently working there. Until Friday.

I have stood up against my bosses, challenged their views and called them out on things numerous times- so many that I have lost count. And I have only been there 18 months. Friday -- I reached my breaking point. I have made little to no headway at this place and to think that I could even begin to break down some of the 20yr barriers at that place was foolish of me. So I have resigned myself to just making it through my remaining time- to simply co-exist and pray constantly for peace, patience and strength within myself. I'm turning in my gloves.

I hope now that I had made this choice that time will pass quickly and that I will neither get an ulcer nor have an emotional break down. I am almost positive that things will not get easier but when it comes down to it-- I need this job and fighting for the "right" of the employed is becoming too risky.