I am continually amazed at how quickly time passes. It seems like just yesterday that we were heading home for Christmas and I was contemplating all the baggage that comes along with the holiday season. And now it is Easter.

I have always loved Christmas time. The warmth of the season- people always seem more friendly and loving. I know that along with Christmas comes a trip home to see people and places I haven't seen in a while. There are so many things I like about Christmas time that I can't even write them all down. Yet the season always comes with extra baggage from seasons past- family things and the feeling that so much has to be done.

But I now have a greater appreciation for Easter. Since I can remember, it seems that Easter was always about the candy, clothes, sun rise service and lunch. However in the past few years when it has just been Adam and I- my feelings for Easter have changed. It now is more of a peaceful holiday- no new clothes, no bunnies or even candy- it is more simplified, in my mind the way it should be. It is celebratory, reassuring and still- a breath of fresh air in a world where there is little fresh air to be had. No baggage.

Happy Easter.

I have recently come to a realization concerning my job.

It has not come easy.

For a while now I have thought of myself as paving the way for those who will come after me and as a voice for those of us currently working there. Until Friday.

I have stood up against my bosses, challenged their views and called them out on things numerous times- so many that I have lost count. And I have only been there 18 months. Friday -- I reached my breaking point. I have made little to no headway at this place and to think that I could even begin to break down some of the 20yr barriers at that place was foolish of me. So I have resigned myself to just making it through my remaining time- to simply co-exist and pray constantly for peace, patience and strength within myself. I'm turning in my gloves.

I hope now that I had made this choice that time will pass quickly and that I will neither get an ulcer nor have an emotional break down. I am almost positive that things will not get easier but when it comes down to it-- I need this job and fighting for the "right" of the employed is becoming too risky.